It’s been a while

Hello all. I has been a bit of time since I have posted on this blog. I want to assure you that I have not abandoned it. Rather I am reorganizing this page and will soon be going multimedia. It is my intention to start filming you tube episodes as a supplement to my blog,

The fear is real…

I am afraid. I live in fear every day of my life. I am a transgender woman, part of a marginalized group. I have been assaulted for being a “fag” in my life. I have had medical professionals dismiss my right to healthcare. I have been homeless and billeted with all men, fearing every night

It’s been a while

So here I am. Back for more punishment. I have tried, when I write on here, to be honest about my feelings. I will try today. I haven’t written in a bit because I’m not feeling hopeful. I’ve been depressed about my late wife. May 29th was her birthday, and it was a bit of

In the long run…

Hi folks. Helena here. I promised this on Saturday, but life intervenes. This post is going to be a trigger for some, as I will talk about things that are hurtful. I will also talk about things that are good. So last weekend I was washing myself and found my first breast bud. I was

I’m still here.

I am working on a long blog post tentatively scheduled for tomorrow. This post will cover a lot of events that happened recently.

Day 16

Hello all, it’s your achey breaky sweetheart, Helena! So today is day 16 of my HRT journey. Yesterday I noticed some twinges and faint aches in my chest. I thought at first my pectoral was having a small muscle spasm. But it seems that is not so. The odd twinges seem to radiate from somewhere

What dreams may come…

Hello all. It’s that Helena chick again. I hope your quarantine is going well and healthy for you. So, as the title of this random post of randomness implies, I want to talk about dreams. I have a lot of vivid dreams. I can usually remember them fairly well. I have the usual naked at

10 days

Ok so it has been 10 days on HRT, and I have felt only 1 effect. My already sensitive nipples are driving me nuts. I have been forced to start wearing the bralettes I got for later. No padding in them but the bra works with that removed just fine. Nothing to hold up or

WOOOOHOOOOOOO!!!

Look out world, MY TITTY SKITTLES ARE IN THE MAIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ahem… that is all. 😀😄🙂🙃🙂😆

Ok, so, I’m an idiot

Well I had my self loathing for the month yesterday. I said many very harsh and self destructive things yesterday. When I started this blog I was determined to put down everything. Good and bad. Well yesterday was bad. Dont get me wrong, I still feel like a heel for hurting my sister. It was