It’s been a while

Hello all. I has been a bit of time since I have posted on this blog. I want to assure you that I have not abandoned it. Rather I am reorganizing this page and will soon be going multimedia. It is my intention to start filming you tube episodes as a supplement to my blog,

My Real Beginning

Hello all. It has been a crazy eye opening month for me. I’ve waited to put down my thoughts because I’ve had to digest recent events. Life is strange and wonderful. Sometimes our fears are totally baseless. Sometimes we see the trap before we fall into it. Recently I have wanted to be more social.

The fear is real…

I am afraid. I live in fear every day of my life. I am a transgender woman, part of a marginalized group. I have been assaulted for being a “fag” in my life. I have had medical professionals dismiss my right to healthcare. I have been homeless and billeted with all men, fearing every night

It’s been a while

So here I am. Back for more punishment. I have tried, when I write on here, to be honest about my feelings. I will try today. I haven’t written in a bit because I’m not feeling hopeful. I’ve been depressed about my late wife. May 29th was her birthday, and it was a bit of

Crazy..

Hi folx. So I’m talking to a Gender Therapist in 12 hours for the first time. Since my talk therapist had to drop me as a patient, I’ve had no professional to talk to. And I think I’ve suffered for it. There have been times in the last few weeks that I have felt that

Gloom, Despair, and Agony on me..

Hi. I’m sorry I haven’t been very diligent with posting. To be frank I am suffering through a depression and a bit of a crisis. As many Transgender people do, I have moments of feeling like I’m playing dressup. I don’ty feel comfortable wearing women’s’ clothing and presenting female yet. And I feel phony wearing

In the long run…

Hi folks. Helena here. I promised this on Saturday, but life intervenes. This post is going to be a trigger for some, as I will talk about things that are hurtful. I will also talk about things that are good. So last weekend I was washing myself and found my first breast bud. I was

I’m still here.

I am working on a long blog post tentatively scheduled for tomorrow. This post will cover a lot of events that happened recently.

Day 16

Hello all, it’s your achey breaky sweetheart, Helena! So today is day 16 of my HRT journey. Yesterday I noticed some twinges and faint aches in my chest. I thought at first my pectoral was having a small muscle spasm. But it seems that is not so. The odd twinges seem to radiate from somewhere

What dreams may come…

Hello all. It’s that Helena chick again. I hope your quarantine is going well and healthy for you. So, as the title of this random post of randomness implies, I want to talk about dreams. I have a lot of vivid dreams. I can usually remember them fairly well. I have the usual naked at